Uninspired

I haven't been to partner class in 2 weeks.  I don't see how my body will move like the people I see  : /  As for the bug, it was the closest thing to dejected I could find. 

Dance Heals (as opposed to Dance HEELS, which is a whole ‘nother post)

It sounds corny but once I became a part of this dance world, I felt like I fit somewhere.  When I see familiar faces who frequent classes, I see people who I have something in common with.  That ONE thing, Salsa, makes everything else in my life obsolete even if only for a little while.  We’re all there to learn / express how to be free.  That sounds great, but to get to that place is not easy for me because it’s not physical at all.  Mentally, I have to let go of judging myself in a class.  Because otherwise I couldn’t learn anything.  A by-product of not judging me is that I stop judging other people.  Isn’t that funny?

Even if you’re not a world champion dancer, the process of learning through dance can be healing.  A lot of my insecurities came out when I first started and they still do.  I found myself analyzing the moments I felt uncomfortable and realizing things about myself.  “I’m afraid when… I feel uncomfortable when… I feel free when…”.  I think it’s the real reason Salsa is so addictive to me.  Because dancing freely isn’t all physical.  For me, it’s mentally healing the parts that are holding me back.